As I've said in my previous journal, I have been feeling weird things inside my body lately. And yeah, I must admit that I am being bothered by it. My chest hurts; my muscles seems like torn; my eyes were always strained; my back is always hurting like hell. I couldn't imagine anything worse than this in the future.
I am so afraid that I might lose my dreams because of what I am feeling now but I am much afraid to know what causes the weird feelings that I am feeling. Oh, God. Help me.
I want to continue living for my father. He's been very dear to me despite of the fact that we are not living together.
I want to make him happy because my older brother disappointed him so much. I want to finish my studies. I want to be a good daughter -- I want to see a big smile on his face.
My heart beats this fast not because of love. It beats this fast because I am worried and scared. If you're reading this journal of mine, kindly include me in your prayers. I'd appreciate it a lot. Thank you.
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Melisa Cruz